no garden this year.
thursday, february 2nd, 2023.
One of my goals this year is to start a small garden. But— I'm giving myself permission to not follow through on that promise to myself.
I've actually got a lot more than I expected on my plate this spring and the prospect of learning how to manage a garden on top of all that was making me pretty anxious. I haven't even purchased a mower to tend to the lawn yet!
So, the garden plans shall be deferred for a year.
I've been wringing my hands about becoming more self-sufficient, but the truth of the matter is that self-sufficiency is a luxury afforded to those with fewer obligations.
I've been cooking a lot lately— I'll consider that my first foray into self-sufficiency. Cooking is an art, but it is also a necessity. It prides me to know that I'm learning how to put together delicious sustenance from raw ingredients. Rather than divide my attention too much this year, I think I'd like to stick to making more home-cooked meals.
Sometimes it's okay to just... rest. To exist without proving your worth by keeping yourself busy. It's something I need to remind myself whenever I self-flagellate over plans I, myself, have created.
In other, more positive news, I finished my second book of the year, Amal El-Mohtar & Max Gladstone's This Is How You Lose the Time War. Wow. I loved that book. I can't share too much without giving away spoilers, but the language is incredibly vivid and the setting was a nice way to think of our relationships in an abstract, yet incredibly real, way.
Until next time, be well! :)